Just a Rant...Sorry :)

Ok do you ever feel like you are still trying to find your place in this world. Or you know what you are good at but you don't know how to use it. I can't say as I am particularly happy doing the job I am doing. While I love Cedarville students/prospective students, I don't feel like I am able really work for/with them in the capacity that I would like to and feel as though I am capable to do. I don't really understand why I am in the position that I am in, I feel completely useless, unappreciated and unneeded and yet am forced to be here. I mean I applied for this job to get away from screaming children and seemingly ungrateful women. It brought me down....but I can't imagine I would leave a place like that be forced to literally sit for 40 hours a week with nothing to do. I am capable of so much more, I know I have more potential than that but this is what I am reduced to.

I won't be doing it much longer but than I will be unemployed....so what is God planning, why would a blessing of getting out of job that was mentally and emotionally draining seem to not be a blessing anymore if it ends a year later with no prospects. I guess I don't know that yet though...I mean it isn't over yet. I realize I am shy and an introvert but goodness I have a lot to offer blast it!!!!
I just want to do something I enjoy
I'm not trying to complain, I'm just confused as to what my purpose for life is.